“Perhaps strength doesn’t reside in having never been broken but in the courage required to grow strong in the broken places.”
Four weeks ago today we walked into the Doctors office to hear the words we never hoped we would hear.
I am sorry but there is no heartbeat….
After 3 years of trying to have a baby, many doctor visits, countless testing which all came back perfectly fine, lots of tears, fervent prayers, and two fertility treatments later we had finally conceived..
We were absolutely elated.. Not knowing what journey was ahead of us..
What do you say. How do you process these moments and where do you go from here..These are a few thoughts that have gone through our minds over the last few weeks.
This has been one of the hardest journey’s we have had to walk, our Faith has been tested but not defeated.
Through it all, God is and always will be faithful.
“God comes in the ache and the GAPS and he breathes. Right there he scoots near. He presses his once-flesh against our bleeding wounds and he heals.”
He has done exactly that.
He has breathed.
He has held.
He is Healing.
He has given peace and he is daily reminding us that we must continue to find Joy in the Journey.
Yes, there have been many hard days, days of mourning and brokenness, days of anger and why us? Days of just simply not knowing what is next..
But, I am thankful that I know who holds our future. I am thankful that I know that the God I serve is not a man that he should lie. He is a man full of promises, goodness and mercy, he is my Abba Father.
For this child Tyler and I have prayed and for this child we will continue to fervently seek the Lord and pray. You see some may stop here and some may give up but for Tyler and I this journey is different.
This journey is bigger than what we can even begin to understand.
There are times in our life that I believe the Lord sets our feet in high places and he requires us to climb mountains because he knows that the strength that is within us can withstand anything that would try to come against us. For us, this journey and this season will be used for his glory! We will war, and we will praise our way through this journey and season of life.
Sometimes it may simply be that the Lord is desiring us to dig deeper into his throne room, unashamedly willing to relinquish our deepest desires and say to our Abba Father, Here I am Lord, Whatever it looks like and whatever it sounds like have your way and move.
I challenge you, in your own journey, to do the same. Dig deeper. War your way to your victory and Know that your praise is your weapon.
As we are continuing to daily put our trust in him, we move forward in hope and great expectation that the Lord will do what he said he would do, his promises of a child will be fulfilled in his timing.
The Lord is still writing our story, and this is just the beginning of a beautiful ending..
This is the sound of surviving. This is my farewell to fear. This is my whole heart deciding, I’m still here and I’m not done fighting….
The Year of The Lord’s Favor
“The spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to proclaim good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those who grieve in Zion– to bestow on them a crown of Beauty instead of Ashes, the oil of Joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. The will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.